i think i am loosing my way...

paul or chris?




fuck.

my d.a. account is 1 year old!!!!




wooo hoooo!

& the more I think about it,
I realize that this is not
the way that it's supposed to be.
the world isn’t supposed to spin
in this direction today...
Today should be the day that
the world comes together for me.
The day that the stars align for me.

& like usual, it’s the same old same old.
he calls. he ims me. I answer. I respond.
I listen. he craves attention from me &
demands for things to happen.
it's just not working anymore.
But yet I still listen. he rants. he bitches.
I laugh & its just becoming more & more pathetic
as each night turns into the blackest day.

He asks if I love him. I can't possibly feel
anything for someone who cant make a few
minutes for me without any distractions.

i'm making a mixed cd. songs from the broken girl.

ps: its secretly killing me

i am not normal...

and quite frankly,
i don't want
to be like them!